Friday, May 11, 2007
11:20 PM

CRIED, N REALISED.

A CLEARER MIND, N A MATURE HEAD.

NO DOUBT, I HAVE BEEN TOO CHILDISH,
being surrounded blindly, by my own world.
how the world has going on, i may have no idea.
tt shows how stupid i am, n i still enjoy myself so much.

there are much much more, i need to do, i have to do, and i must achieve.
its so sad to see...
n pain.

i don't wish to expirence what i had expirencing today, it wasn't like the end of the world, but the termination of my dream. that makes me hate myself.

for the first time in my life, i doubted myself, i doubted my ability of achieving my goals, which i have never thought of before.

nvm, it was good. making me realised tt life is no longer the same, the sweet northview life ended long ago. for me, i have to face it with a high up head.

Ppl arrounding me are too bright and shiny, making me have no confidence to look at.
at times, ask myself, do i really good at anything???
achievements?? ok...think they are partially rubbish.

wan respect?! earn it yourself.
the world is fair. equal opportunity for everyone. no discrimination.
it only need our own actions. so what am i waiting for??

jus do it!

thanks for carian todae. thanks for your hugges. it made me feel much better.
made me feel that there is someone who still cares. thank u my darling.

o well. no matter admit it or not. the world is like this, cruel...n equality 4 everyone.

sad. lost. blank. pain.

[ this is how it all started* ]